Tempest Sonata

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I seem to have survived everything and gotten the chance to live another day.

I'm going to blog once more

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A lot of people think of me as a quiet, gentle, innocent, fragile person. Maybe it's because I don't talk much if I don't really have anything to say. Or I just look a bit young for my age. I'm not really good at making friends. Still, I know I have the BEST.

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Just bought a ticket earlier.

Now I'd just have to force myself to watch the concert no matter what happens!

I missed the concert, "Back to Bach 2", last month because of the stupid rain and flood... Ugly Dapitan Street and Ugly Manila...because of trash who throw trash everywhere (you are what you litter, you know.). Hahahaha

Oh well. I've been waiting for this concert so I'd better make sure I'll be able to come.

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The concert ended at 9pm

Sigh... I didn't enjoy the concert this evening that much. I was too busy looking for details for my reaction paper to enjoy the performances.

After the concert, I waited for an hour for the driver to pick me up... I told him to be there before 9. My mom made him drive her to SM that's why I got home so late...

I hope, I'd get chosen to be one of the performers for next year..

Anyway, this isn't really much of a good day for me... The weekend was also boring... But since there won't be classes tomorrow, I'll just have to make everything out of that day and make myself start a good week.

Time to sleep

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There was this girl I courted last July. She was a schoolmate from highschool. We went out on 2 dates...

Our first date was supposed to be my treat. It was held a few days after July 4th, my birthday. We ate at Saisaki but she declined my offer to pay for everything. It was fun. We sat there for 2 hours, chatting while eating.

Our second date was at Powerplant Mall. She forgot that that day was the premiere of The Dark Knight. Still, we fell in line for 30 minutes then bought some tickets. Earlier shows were full, so we chose 11pm...we finished buying tickets at 5:30. We just strolled around the mall, went to the bookstore, walked around some more, ate dinner, then sat on the bench while she was playing her PSP. 11pm, we were in. I guess we were "MU"(i think) a few days before. She was feeling cold so she hugged me... I rode her home after the movie. Everything was going to be okay--or so I thought.

The next day, it was like she was ignoring me. No texts,calls or whatever. Until that night, she suddenly told me that she wants us only to be friends... that's it. Without anything much of an explanation.

I had finally gotten over her after a month. Our friendship wasn't exactly how it used to be, and I thought everything was going to be okay after some time... But actually, it didn't. Now she treats me like a stranger or someone who doesn't really exist.

When I was feeling loney and just needed someone to talk to out of boredom...or maybe had some minor problems, I told her. But it was like I didn't really said pretty much of anything. Her reply: "okay".

Just this morning, I received a text. She told me to stop being so "emo" because she's busy. I wasn't being "emo". I was happy...and I still am---just a bit pissed. I was only asking for some of her time to maybe have some chats or laughs.

I value my friends above everything else. They're one of the reasons why I can keep on going. But it would just be useless to be friends with people like her.

To make things clear, I'm not sad or feeling down right now. In fact, I'm feeling great!


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I woke up 7am earlier this morning. I couldn't sleep. I wonder why...

I finished fixing my self up a few minutes before 10, then headed to school. I waited there for 30 minutes. No professor came.

Second class at 2pm. I was nearly at UST's gate when some of my classmates saw me on the way. They called me and told that the professor won't be there. Went home afterwards.

I was supposed to have 2 classes during Tuesdays. I guess I just worked myself up walking back and forth. Hahaha

I just finished making the reaction paper. Haven't printed it yet because we ran out of ink. I'll just print it tomorrow... I hate the subject requiring the paper...or maybe I just don't like the professor.

I was having a hard time practicing the piano since yesterday. I guess I'm just stressed out. Well, time to rest up!

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Just last night, me and Popoy were reminiscing the times when we were still freshmen... when I was still part of the 1-GMT class 3 years ago. How nostalgic.

We were laughing at the things we did---our immaturities... Scaring people over the YM, booting, studying with each other at online conference rooms, bringing guitars at school, playing piano at the museum, and other stuff.

Among Popoy's friends and seatmates, I was the 1st one to leave the G's. The other 2 were Hazel and Che... both of them migrated abroad.

I miss eating meals or snacks with them. It's been a while since I've last seen my friends. And it's been like forever since I've last seen the whole batch.

Popoy was just talking about having a reunion. If ever there would be a reunion, don't forget to invite me! Hahaha


Time to attend classes...

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I was playing the piano after my first class... I wasn't really in the mood to put some emotions into anything...

I was practicing the 1st and 2nd mov't Moonlight Sonata because I'm going to play it to someone. I was having a hard time. I didn't really feel the way I did before when playing the piece. Everything was...dry...dead... I paused for a while after finishing the 1st movement. I told myself that this is going to be for someone so I better fix myself up. Fortunately, I was able to play it with emotions on the second try... And so I did on my other pieces.

Practiced my other sonata, and my nocturne. All went fine... for the moment, at atleast.

I was practiced for 2 hours. Then it's time to go to class.

By the time I stood, I suddenly felt so dizzy, weak, and very very hungry. Ignoring my hunger, I decided to go to class since I'm already running late.

I got to school a few minutes after 10am. While waiting on the elevator, I saw my classmate. He told me that the class was cancelled. Crap. I walked to school while feeling very hungry and weak then the class was cancelled! I walked back home after hearing the news.

I decided to practice once again. But my hunger was dragging me down. I stopped practicing, then ate lunch. Got back to the piano and practiced as much as I can.

I stopped playing at 12pm. When I stood up... it was the same... but worse! I felt my blood pressure suddenly drop. My face was feeling cold. Eyesight darkened a bit. Dizzy. Weak... I felt something snap on my neck when I was stretching. Now, it's painful to turn my head left. What the heck!?

Got to school at 12pm. Waited for the dean to teach class.

After our Statistics class, it's time for my Applied Major.

...

1 hour passed by and I did bad. The little, easy pieces that I have been practicing for a couple of times were horrible! The professor thought I wasn't studying my pieces. . Even my sonata, in which I was praised last week, didn't go right..

Aww crap... My piano is possessed!!!! Nah... I don't believe in those..

I'm feeling too tired to practice some more today... But maybe I'll just play Moonlight for a few times. I'm going to play it for my friend tomorrow.

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I had my P.E. class 7am this morning (Yeah, I'm already in the 4th year and I'm still taking P.E.)... I walked to school with a friend and classmate who's living somewhere near here.

My groupmate asked me to bring my music player and the disc we used during our preliminary exam dance. She was absent when we took the exam so she had to take it late. She wasn't going solo, though. She asked one of our groupmates to dance with her for her exam.

We arrived there a few minutes before the instructor came. Still, none of my groupmates were there yet. So me and my friend chatted while waiting. My groupmate arrived a few minutes after the attendance check.

30 minutes have passed and none of my other groupmates seem to be attending the class. I had no choice but to dance her. It's been 3 weeks so I have forgotten half of the choreographed dance. It was Cha Cha Cha.

We practiced half of the dance for an hour while trying to recall the next steps... She then said that she was ready to take the test...(oh really...?)

My friend who I walked to school with hasn't also taken the exam. We decided to let her go first. Her partner was her groupmate who has finished taking the exam a week ago.

After her turn, the professor called all my classmates to sit near the middle. WTF!? More audience?? Then she asked them to give us space.

We danced a bit decently during the first half... But after that... SHE DID SOME ADLIBS!! I did not see that coming... Luckily... I was able to follow until the dance ended. I already have a grade but I did not want to look stupid.

Oh well... We'll have our finals in 2 weeks. I don't know if I'd ever make it with my irresponsible groupmates.

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Last week, my uncle told me to visit them.

I was supposed to go there with another cousin of mine. But, one of my uncles called me and told me to go there immediately after class...so I told my cousin, Sheryl, that I'd be going first.

My class ended at 1pm. I didn't attend my last class. I was so sleepy at that time. I texted my cousin and asked her if my other uncle was there. She told me that my uncle wasn't there and told me to come at 3pm.

2:30 I decided to leave the home. I rode on a taxi. It took a long time for me to reach Manila Doctor's Hosp. The traffic was heavy during the time. I really hate going out on Fridays. My uncle paid for the taxi.

When I got in the room where my cousin, Rambo, was confined, Sheryl just got up from nap. My uncle was watching smallville on his my aunt's laptop. My aunt was checking up on his son.

Rambo just recently had a leg surgery. They replaced his damaged bionic bone. He had cancer twice at a young age.

My other uncle and aunt arrived 30 minutes after my arrival.

For the whole time, I was chatting with Sheryl. Talking about our planned performance on her debut and music stuff.

7:30pm, Rambo and Sheryl's siblings came. They were all wearing purple. My uncle was calling my cousin, JR, gay because he was wearing purple. He always teases his nephews. My other uncle and aunt left after a couple of minutes.

We were playing PSP for a while. Then, my uncle asked us our orders and ordered their driver to buy at KFC. While waiting, we prayed.

Me and my cousins went home after eating. My uncle and aunt stayed there with Rambo. They dropped me off at 10:30pm.

I'll be with them at dinner tonight at Saisaki. A celebration for my Grandma's birthday last Wednesday.




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I've been with cousins this past weekend.

Been visiting my cousin at Manila Doctor's Hospital. He had his titanium alloy bone on his leg replaced because of the damage. He got out of the recovery room last friday. He's going to be discharged early this week.

Saturday,

We were supposed to have a practice for our upcoming finals for our P.E. Only one of my groupmates came. We waited here at home until 11am. None of my other groupmates came because of "problems".

While waiting for the others, I was playing the piano and my groupmate, Ghia, was playing jackstones (hahaha) and sometimes playing with the dogs. My friend, Ayel, decided to come to watch me play the first and second movement of her favorite piece, Moonlight Sonata. And ofcourse, I wasn't able to avoid committing a few mistakes. Yeah, I am quite clumsy. It was her first time to watch someone play that piece... "live" as she said.

They left a few minutes before lunch.

I ate lunch by myself and went upstairs to play PSP. Only lasted an hour and a half then decided to take a nap.

I woke up at 4pm and called my cousin to confirm the time before we leave for Saisaki (my grandma's birthday celebration was held there). He told me that it's going to be at 6pm. I started fixing myself up for the party.

Went to Madoc's again and waited there with my cousins till it was time. I went to Saisaki with my cousin, and our uncle and aunt. I was asked to carry tha present for my grandma, a giant cookie with our names and a big happy 18th birthday on top if it... Traffic was heavy. On the way, my uncle is getting irritated because of the directions my other cousins gave us... and because of the jeeps that keep barring the way. Me and my cousin were just making fun of him and kept saying that he was just hungry. It was fun.

When we got there, I put the box on front of where my grandma was sitting. Opened it up for her... then it was time for picture taking. Grandma and grandpeople...hahaha.

After the picture taking, we decided to get a plate and grab some buffet food. My first plate was overloaded... Ordered some tea. After eating, I was so full. But I still decided to eat more. I filled my second plate with pink salmon sashimi and a few tamago sashimi and sushi. I stood up, going places, talking to my relatives, having fun of some of them, using my aunt's digicam to take photos, etc. I was too full to sit down in just one place.

After the party, we went back to Madoc's. My cousin who underwent a surgery was left there with his mom. He gets happy when people come to visit him.

At 9:30, I needed to leave. We went home and arrived there some minutes after 10. I was already wearing my clothes for the next party.

10:30, Ayel came with some of her friends. My driver drove us off to Alchemy.

This night was different. It wasn't that fun compared to the first time. It was too crowded. Nowhere to sit, hard to walk past the people on the dance floor. I got my first bottle of San Mig Light. Drank it slow. Took a while before I managed to empty the bottle. I was having a hard time moving around or trying to dance while holding a bottle. But a few minutes after drinking that one, I ordered another one. San Mig Strong Ice. I decided to empty is quicker than the first one so I took bigger gulps of beer. By the time I finished it, I was already getting dizzy. I was still able to walk without falling. I was still sane fortunately.

1:30am, I was already getting bored. It really was boring. I guess, I really don't like girls who go there. The music was boring me... I don't like house, hiphop and RnB.

For the whole time, I was at the platform...at the back, leaning my back on the wall beside Ayel's friend. I guess, I wasn't the only one who got bored.

3am, we went outside and sat in front of Starbucks. 2 of Ayel's friends were already sitting there. We sat there for a while, talked, then went back inside. And I was just asking them if people dancing inside never get tired... A lot of people were already sitting. Sitting everywhere. So we decided to go home.

Got home at 4am. Took a bath, then went to sleep.

Do I want to go back there? Maybe if there are lots of friends... or maybe if I had a date. But I'd never try to find one there.

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I woke up at around 10:30 because of my dad. He used my PC to play poker. It's always poker whenever he gets a chance.

I went to our LTS seminar at 3pm with Zel.

While inside the Med Audi, I was having fun of her because of her fan (wind generating thing) habits. It was so funny. I was sitting there, waiting for the speaker when I heard her open her fan...CHINESE style! She told me it was a habit of hers. She already broke lots of fans because of that habit.

For the whole time, I was just listening to the speaker. There was this instance when the speaker was talking about DOTA(eww..hahaha) and "Na-ruto"'s "KABUNSHIN" (wow). And he keeps repeating some section names...(I think it was 2-E1 and blahblah... Educ sections).

After that long speech which laster for about an hour and a half, I went home. I was planning on going to Madoc's again because my 2 cousins were asking me to go there to play PSP again. I hesitated by the time I got home because I was feeling tired... He insisted... so I changed clothes and went there.

We played PSP, talked, ate dinner and prayed while we were there. After the prayer, we went home. My cousin drove me off and dropped me at España cor. Dos Castillas. It was 8:30pm and I walked home alone. It was farther than my usual home to school, school to home routine. I got home safely.

End of Sunday events and activities.


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Something really weird happened to me 2 hours past midnight this day... I really don't believe in something like this but I'll just tell the story.

Before waking up at 2am, I had a dream... I saw a human figure. Just a figure with no face. Then I suddenly felt my body heavy. I couldn't move. Yeah, yeah, people won't really be able to move their body while dreaming. I was holding the figure's neck with one hand. Then, I woke up. Still sleepy, I went back to sleep... Once again, I felt my body being pushed down... Trying to move, I said, you can't do anything to me (it's a dream). Then, I was able to move my arm and woke up. Again, still sleepy, I slept once again... The same thing happened again until I woke up. I heard Gotchi(my dog) trying to dig on the bed. When I moved my leg, I felt an area wet. I tried to get up...

This is when the hell night started...

When I tried to get up, I felt my back aching like hell. I can't move my left leg because of the pain. But because there's pee on my bed, I forced myself to get up. I managed to walk and grab the door. I couldn't bear the pain. I called the helper and asked her to change my bedsheet. I sat on the chair while still in pain. Went back to lie down after she finished changing my sheet. No matter what position I lie down or lie on my chest, the pain wouldn't go away. Once again, I tried to get up and ask her to get me the paracetamol. After taking the medicine, I went back to bed... An hour passed by while I was still awake because of the pain... After a while, I managed to put my self to sleep.

I woke up at 7:30... back still painful... only worse!

2 hours have passed and the pain was still there... But my back was getting better. I wasn't able to attend my 10am class because I couldn't get up. A few minutes after 10 and I was already feeling fine. The pain was still there but it was already bearable or... ignorable. I was able to get up and eat breakfast.

After breakfast, I just laid back and played my PSP for a while. I went to school at 2pm like nothing bad happened to me.

3pm, classes were over. On my way to the elevator, I met my 5th year friend, Elaine. She was asking me if I had any piece I could play for the public. I said no because I haven't been able to memorize pretty much anything yet. She offered me to have her as my practice audience when I practice my piece sometimes. I guess it should be for the better. I might now be able to get an expert opinion(yeah, she's about to graduate next year) at times when I need to figure out how to play the piece correctly.

As I got outside the building, it suddenly rained so hard. I walked home with an umbrella... But even with an umbrella, almost half of my body still got wet when I got home.

That's pretty much everything that happened to me during the day.



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Saturday last week was supposed to be our practice or plannings for our P.E. finals. Only one groupmate came: Ghia. Ayel also went here to get a video of my far from perfect incomplete Moonlight Sonata. No practice or plans were made during this day.

Wednesday, a second attempt for a group meeting. This time, Aldo(Aldrin/Dino) and Ghia were present. We tried recalling our jive steps but we already forgot pretty much everything. Aldo has been complaining about our theme and suggested a change. He wanted retro 80's. Nothing much happened during this day.

Thursday, P.E. time. Pre-finals test was scheduled for this day. Me and my groupmates found an empty spot and talked there. We used more than an hour just to select some songs and trying to recall some of our steps...

The instructor called all of us. It was time for our pre-finals. She wanted to see everything that we are going to do for our final exam... Only without the props and costume.

We were called out first. We were unprepared. In fact, none of us in the whole class was prepared. We said we didn't have anything to perform yet. We were graded 5. Next group. They already have their steps. One of them performed a few splits, too... Still, they also received a grade of 5 because none of what they did interpreted anything. The instructor was also commenting about their jive being too basic. A few more groups performed... All 5.

None of the whole class passed our pre-finals exam.

After class, me and Aldo went to my house to fix our music. I did the editing while he just enumerated the points where the songs will be cut.

Ayel came after I finished editing the music. The 3 of us just chatted with each other until lunch time. We ate at McDonald's and separated after having lunch.

Up until now, we still don't know the steps for our jive dance.

Goodluck to all of us. Hahahahaha

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Well... Nothing really much happened today.

Woke up 6am and went to school at 7am. Learned that my finals for that subject will be held at thursday... Same time with my P.E. finals...but with some extensions so I think I'll make it.

After my 12pm class, I just sat there waiting for maybe someone I know to enter the vacant room. Waited for a long time till someone came. It was Vincent, a 2nd year friend. It was just then when I heard a part of his life's story. It was just by then when I knew that he was already 30.

2pm when I got out of the room. Went upstairs for my solfeggio class. I was a bit late. But it was fine. We had a recitation. The professor gave us the rhythm and it's up to each one of us to make our own melodies out of the given rhythm. I already have my melody in mind when I was called. I tried singing with my voice. She told me not to use my natural voice (because I can't sing with my natural voice).

I tried doing the rhythm when I got home. Then I decided to make some harmony for it... Until I was able to make a part of a composition. Here is a gist of it...
<a href=http://www.freewebtown.com/aokuroshiro/Piano%20Piece.MID>MIDI File</a>
(If ever you get any warning... Just ignore..)

It's time to sleep


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A lot of things have been going on lately. Some of my friends have been having problems with who knows what.

I've been offering help. All I could really do is give some advice and try to cheer them up. I don't always end up succesful, but atleast I tried.

I know one thing, my experience helped me out alot. Because of what happened, I really do think I've learned enough to give some advice.

But what's really important is--- how you perceive life. Everything will be unfair if you view the world like nothing really is fair----and eventually, you'll become a loser.

It's just last month since I've learned to see the world in a different way I did before... Before, I was so negative. Now, I'm enjoying my life as it is now.

I don't want my friends to suffer the way I did. I don't want them to commit the same mistake or let any simple problems bring them down.

I'm here. I can listen to you. I'm here to help you out. I'm your friend.